Making a Difference

There are so many people that tell all of us kids that one person can make a huge difference.  I don't buy it.  If one person does something crazy and amazing, it still needs a whole lot of people to notice.  If no one notices, you are not really making a difference are you?  Martin Luther King Jr:  He was an amazing man who, by himself made a speech to the United states.  Would it have made an impact, though, if no one showed up to his speech?  No probably not. 

I know, this may sound very pessamistic, but that is not what I am trying to go for.  I am just being realistic.  If you want to make a difference in the world, you really have to try to get as many people involved as you possibly can.  I think it is important for people to realize that you do need help, and the grace of God to make a real difference in the world.  You cannot do it alone.  Get a big group together.  Pray to God.  Make a huge difference in the world.

My Definitions pt. 2

Wow.  I ran accross this in my notebook today.  I totally forgot about my little mini series with these definitions and things.  So here is a definition that I actually wrote a couple of months ago, but wasn't ready to post because it had some meaning to me.  It still kind of does, but I have gotten over it.

Moving on.  That is what I am going to define.  It may mean something different for some of you out there, but I think this is generally what moving on should be.  It is something that took me a long time to figure out myself.  What I have finally found, though, is that moving on does not mean going out and finding something, or someone new.  It means letting go of the past.  Yes, sometimes in the process of moving on, you find something or someone else, and that is okay, but you don't have to find something else in order to move on.  I see a lot of people that take moving on as finding someone or something new, and that's just not the case.  You can find something new and still not have completely moved on.  Moving on may take time.  Letting go may take time.   It is okay.  Time may be the best thing for someone who is moving on.  Forgiveness may be needed, depending on the situation. (If anyone has questions about that one, they can look to my Definitions pt. 1).  So when you are trying to move on from someone or something, don't let your first instinct be to find something new.  Just work on letting go.

Just Another Day

Another Valentine's day has gone by.  While some are spending time with the love of their life, or who they think to be the love their life, I am here, at home.  I don't have a valentine this year, as I did last year.  And yet, I am not sad because of it.  There are too many other things to worry about, other than not having someone to be in love with.  Yes, I do miss having that one person here a little bit, but it's not a big problem anymore for me. 

What I am worried about is family.  Cancer is getting to be a worse problem, and it scares all of us.  Cancer being spread across one body is a scary thing.  It's not just one or two people who are being affected, it is the large amount of family and friends that are also going to be affected and depressed when that one person is gone.

On the upside, I have finally gotten the job that I have been wanting for a couple months now.  I had been working with some family refinishing furniture, and that was fine, but it's really not what I want to be doing for the next year and a half before I go to beauty school.  I have finally got a job as a receptionist at a salon.  No, it is not a super fabulous job for most people, but I want to own a salon one day too, so learning all the parts of a salon is something that would be good for me.  It is something that I want to do.

And so, today has seemed to just be another day.  Not really a holiday of sorts, but just another day.  So goodnight, and for all of those out there with their lovely spouses, boyfriends, and fiances, I am happy for you.  Good luck with all of the other days ahead of you.

Confusion

Confusion has overcome me, as it does for most teenage girls.  The one of guys.  I am not even talking about guys that I like; just this guy that I am really good friends with.  I have known him for a pretty long time, and have never had this problem before, until now that is.  I was talking to him on the phone earlier and his boss called him, so I let him hang up on me and he said he was going to call me back when his conversation with his boss was over, well it's been well over an hour, and I still have had no reply.  Now, this wouldn't be such a big deal to me if I didn't have a super question to ask him, but I do, and he is not answering me.  I really don't think he is having an hour long conversation with his boss.  He never ignores me, though.  I don't really know what is going on.  Plenty of boyfriends have done that to me, or guys that knew that I liked them, or guys that have liked me have done that to me.  Not this guy though;  I don't have feelings for him and he doesn't have feelings for me (I'm pretty sure, I guess you never really know for sure).  I don't know why he would ignore me... and so, as I said before, confusion has overcome me.

New

Today, 4 days after I got my hair cut, I re- dyed it.  I have two different colors in my hair, but they blend so well, you can barely tell they're different.  I feel like a new person.  I feel like I have let go of the girl who needed that guy, the girl who didn't know who she was, the girl who wasn't ready for God yet.  I feel like I am ready for anything now.  I am ready to take on the world.  I am really ready to take on God.  I think before, I was in that questioning stage, where I had accepted him as my savior, but I still didn't understand why he was letting sad, or terrible things happen.  Now I know he has a plan, and no matter what happens, it is a part of that plan, and I will trust that God has got this big, grand plan for me.  I know that he does.  He is a good guy you know?  He is going to be good to me, no matter what anyone else thinks.  I will be happy with God.  I will.

Right and Wrong

Have you ever asked yourself whether you are a good person or not?  How do you really know if you're a good person?  I mean, just because someone does something like volunteer to help the homeless on a regular basis, or goes on mission trips every year, does that make them a good person?  Or does that just mean that they have too much time on their hands and don't have any better way of spending it?  What if they do things like this all the time, though?  What if all you see one doing is good things?  Are they a good person?  What if while they are doing it, they are thinking really bad thoughts?  What if, when they are alone, they are doing unthinkable things?  Are they a good person, or not?  What if they don't know that what they are doing is wrong?  Then are they a bad person, or are they just naive?

Most people have enough common sense to generally know what is right and wrong, but what about the things like this:  Telling someone who is talking crap about them, or telling a friend if you think their boyfriend/girlfriend was flirting with you/someone else. 

Is it right to say, "hey, (so and so) was saying (this) about you."  Should you tell them and let them know who they should be telling things to, or should you just say, "hey, I overheard someone saying (this) about you."  Either way, aren't you hurting someone?  Either someone is going to probably lose a friend because of you, or that person is going to keep getting talked about.  Should you get involved at all, or is it really none of your business?

What about telling your friend about their boyfriend/girlfriend flirting?  What if you just took it the wrong way?  But then again, what if they really were flirting and they end up cheating.  Then wouldn't you feel guilty?  Which is right?